There was a time I felt distant from God. This is how returning to Him restored my faith, trust, and confidence in His power.
I had taken a different road that led me far away from God and His will. While I still believed He existed, I didn’t fully trust in His power. I don’t think I deeply understood how strong His power is.
It wasn’t until after my daughter was born, while I was also facing chaos in my personal life, that I realized I needed to return home. So I turned to the One who is always faithful. God’s grace became my guiding light. I went from desperately begging God to change me so I could be a good wife and mother to truly internalizing His word.
I started looking up videos that shared how to live according to God’s design, and the exact content I needed was pouring at me like a storm in a dry desert. It had to be God guiding me.
Each morning I would look forward to my time listening to wise people who shared the gospel. Their insight and message were a God-given gift each day.
What started as a way to bring peace back into my home became the well of love that I was searching for. My journey became about more than just healing my relationships. It became first and foremost about my relationship with myself. I had to accept I was a daughter of God and feel worthy of that title.
I remember the day I heard a video talk about confidence, something I have always struggled with. Maybe you can relate. It explained that when we focus on God and live in His word instead of comparing ourselves to others, judging ourselves, or trying to compete with those around us, we are truly free to live in confidence. God has already forgiven us. He already accepts and loves us as we are. Nothing can take that away from us.
Wow. That hit me hard. In that moment, God’s everlasting and unfailing love filled me. It was the epiphany I so long desired. I was in the season of doubt and hopelessness, wondering if winter would completely destroy me.
In that moment, I saw the rays of the sun showing a sign of spring. I felt God open His arms and say, “Welcome back home.” I realized that no matter how much I thought I had strayed from Him, I was never alone. He was always with me.
That was the first day I truly felt myself begin to form a mature relationship with God. I saw Him as my true Father. I became hungry for more Scripture, more knowledge, more information from people who could teach me how to grow closer to God.
Prayer became a part of my daily routine—intentional time spent with God. Through that time with God, I began to witness His grace. My faith took a turn from I know God exists and I believe in Him to He is my Savior and His love is the most powerful thing in my life. How could I forsake Him?
I wake up each morning with renewed strength, hope, and joy, replacing what was once a pressure of isolation and despair. Dwelling in God is our safe haven. When the world seems to fall apart, we must know we always have a place in His home.
Like Psalm 23:6 says, “Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”
God’s grace and love truly do follow us each and every day. Every sunrise we get a new opportunity to grow in His word and love. Every sunset we get the blessing to thank Him for another day where we know Him better.
God’s voice is finally becoming clearer. I am learning to surrender all to Him and listen to what He has to say. Accepting His grace has been the greatest gift. It has opened up a new meaning to life and a newfound purpose.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding” (Proverbs 3:5)
Proverbs 3:5 has been instrumental in reminding me that all we have to do is trust in the Lord and surrender control. It was the first Scripture I memorized and one that I hope will give you strength to do the same.
I am still learning and growing. I wish I could tell you I have it all figured out and have all the answers to life’s challenges. Only our Heavenly Father has the answers, and we can find them through Him. Our time here is about continuous growth with Him, in Him, and through Him. My roots are still growing deeper so I can have a solid foundation to flourish, and I am excited to walk with Christ.
If you are also learning, returning, or simply wanting more of God, you are not alone. From Scripture to devotions to womanhood, Flourish in Grace was created to bring us closer to God.
Let me share what I have learned about spending time with God, even when it feels impossible to fit in.
Why Spending Time With God Matters
Spending intentional time with God can be challenging when life is busy. Maybe you have young children, a demanding job, volunteer responsibilities, a hectic family schedule, or take care of a family member. I get it. However, I have learned that when I spend a few purposeful minutes with God each day, the challenges that used to swallow me up aren’t so overwhelming. Being with Him makes the most insurmountable problems seem manageable.
I hope you will join me in this journey so we can grow, learn, and flourish in faith together.
Prayer
Heavenly Father, I thank you for showing me your grace and kindness. You are always with me, even when I think I have it all under control. Remind me to surrender to you, give You my burdens and live in Your word. Bless me with Your love and guide me to seek Your light all the days of my life. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
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